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2010-10-27T21:22:00.001+08:00

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2010-08-26T21:00:00.005+08:00

*Droolsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!

Dhiyana

2010-08-19T00:17:00.005+08:00

Happy 10th Monthsary Dearestlove!

First of all i would like to thank you, for not giving up on me no matter what i have done so far, even when i asked for a separate ways or a time off. I know it doesn't exist in your dictionary when i say i need a time off, but sometimes i do need some space for myself to be alone. Please don't get the wrong idea.

I’m sorry for being rude to you most of the times, making you teared for me when we fought. I’m sorry for the constant shouting and beating in publics creating nuisance.

I’m sorry for giving you the face and attitude to make you give in to me all the time, even when i treat you as a punching bag to release my emotions.

You know I love you so much to let you go even when i can't take it any longer.

I’m sorry for the constant screaming and heartbreaking words I gave.

I'm sorry to bring back your past to create fights. ( I hate _________! )

I'm just too much! (I know right)

When I reflect back how I’ve been treating you all this while, I broke down, simply because, I don’t deserve someone like you. Am i right d?

In my eyes, you are the most wonderful guy I’ve ever met, so do other girls that you've been with, says the same thing. Hmmms.

I don’t know if you’re being flirtatious or cheating on me behind my back, but just so you know, you’ve changed me in many ways.

I hate my past, so do you, i'm changing into a better person slowly, alhamdullilah.

I don’t deserve being treated so nicely when all these while, I’ve been screaming, blaming, shouting my fucking hearts out, beating, being such a bitch to you.

I’m sorry, I love you. Everything happens for a reason.

I'm tired with everything including myself. It's very hard for me to express it here, because I guess some things are meant to be kept inside. I feel like doing nothing but just lay in my bed, staring at the empty spaces. I'm all numb and how would you feel when you're trapped inside a dark room without any light in sight? It's all about that now.

I know I'm never enough. Yes I've been having low self-esteem lately. No confidence, and I'm so full of insecurities. I know I shouldn't drag along my self-esteem in it,

because it would eventually make me feel even worse but I'm dealing with one bad news after another. I don't even know what to do next because I'm just so speechless of what's going on now. I'm just lost and in need of a light.

Thank you for being with me through the thick and thin even we are just months together.

Ps: "I'm still here waiting for you?" Aren't you ashamed at all? Hahaha!

With love,

Dhiyana.

2010-08-08T00:48:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Dhiyana

2010-07-27T23:57:00.003+08:00

This is what happen to me every morning and it's frustrating!

Dhiyana

2010-07-24T21:24:00.007+08:00

Outdated pictures, sorry :(

I really really really in need of a new camera, DSLR maybe?

Hello friends and bloggers!

Wow, this blog is super duper dusty and dead I can say.

Oh wells, I've been busy with school and projects, and did I tell you people am sucks in time management?! Yes, I am sucks in time management! I can waste as much time as I want, but in the end I will struggle like an earthworm trying to get out of the hole! FML lahhh eyyy! Tsk.

So yahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, next monday will be my ECM event and I've still have not decided what to wear! And the theme is Geeky. Anyone help me please! Sad face*

And my 2010 have not been a good start yet and its like alr July? Wth mardhiyana!

My attachment is coming but it seems like am not prepared yet!

But this year I really want to fast for the whole month unless I have my period & also I wanna perform my terawih, insyallah.

And to whoever it may concern, please please please, don't fight through the net or cyber world please? Facebook is where you let out your feelings and thoughts, not a place where you wanna criticize and scold vulgarities directly referring to the person itself. Not forgetting the girls who never fails to put a smile on my face, ily. I miss my cousins, my own bloods, very much, I swear! I can't wait for Raya to meet all of them (:

Im sorry for the long winded post, but I just can't help it, I wanna write more but I guess I'll stop here than. I'll update again whenever I'm having my free time. xoxo.

Dhiyana.

2010-06-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

Dhiyana

2010-06-10T23:41:00.002+08:00

"Somethings are never meant to lose."

I swear, I deleted every single thing/memories of me and him. Numbers, messages, pictures in my phone and even reboot my laptop. But I was actually shocked to find a folder in my laptop of me and him.

I clearly remember that I deleted every detail of him. But how could a folder be in my laptop when everything has been rebooted. I even sent it to the shop. It should all be lost. Nothing should remain.

The necklace is still with me. Couldn't bare to throw it away.

I don't miss him. I just miss what we used to be.

I seriously hate it when I'm about to move on, things just reminds me of why I should stay.

The question in my head right now, how could something which I've deleted two months back be in my laptop under one folder.

Anonymous : "This is unfair!"

Me : "Well, this is life. It is unfair."

Deenaa

2010-06-10T15:24:00.003+08:00

"The Karate Kid"

The release date for this movie is officially released today!

The genre for this movie is action movies, and i just love action and horror movies but it seems like i'm getting quite outdated, actually very outdated uh about movies that is hot showing in cinemas.

None of my friends ask me along to watch movies, so thats the reason why I'm very very outdated while boyfriend in camp. tsk.

I'm planning to watch tomorrow, I wanna do online booking using my boyfriend's card BUT i freaking don't know how to get it done.

And the reason why I wanna do online booking is because, tomorrow all cinemas that is showing this movie will be overwhelmed with people! Like seriously! Bingit jee aye!

And ohh yah! My brother is now in camp, he's in Singapore Police Force which he can see my boyfriend almost like everyday. Hahaha.

I'm dead bored at home, Lisha wants me to be at her crib, but I'm like so lazy to move my ass off from my bed. Tomorrow I will be alone again to Novena, boring sey. Walk alone, shop alone, eat alone, drink alone, smoke alone ._____.

Okay, i wanna watch movies on youTube now.

Ps: I just don't feel like to be around you, or even talking to you.

DhiyanaChika.

Someone gave me this minahrep name.

LOL!

2010-05-14T14:08:00.003+08:00

I just feel like eating e-clairs with Ben & Jerry's ice creammmmm!

& a chill session with all my girlfriendssssssssss together.

I want those e-clairs that really melts in the mouthhhhhhh, sapppppppppppppppz!

NAKKKKKKKKKKKKKK PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

ps: Book out ohhh!

Dhiyana

2010-05-09T17:44:00.004+08:00

Hey, I've haven't been visiting nor updating this blog for quite some time now.

Life's been dreadful ever since he left. But life has to carry on. In 2 more days, it marks the 3rd month that I've been alone without him.

3 painful suffering months. I miss hugging him, I miss his smile, I miss his laughter, I miss his lame jokes, I miss the late night meet ups, But most importantly, I miss him ever so much.

I just miss being in love. Where everything seems perfect when you're with the one you love. Who you can turn to when everything isn't right. Who you can lean on when you're crying. Who'll always be there for you even if you call him at 4am in the morning and said that you're sad.

It's just heartbreaking without him. And this is what I call love.

Sincerely, deenaa

2010-04-28T20:21:00.004+08:00

i'll be right back!

veryvery soon!

Dhiyana.

2010-04-07T14:45:00.003+08:00

Having high self-esteem, have confidence in myself and of course loving myself.

How to, if your words that you claimed were just honest opinions kept bringing me down every single time I tried to bring myself up? And you exaggerate when it comes talking about something that you know you will probably hurt my feelings.

I know I’m nowhere near your standard, but when are you going to realize how deeply hurt I felt?

You know, you are just bringing me down, every single time. I know u didn't mean what u say, but hey come on guysssssssssss. Or either im the one who is too sensitive with it?

Why are we both always making a big fuss over small matters? Im just too sick and tired of it, i swear.

Was it because you were at fault all the time or you simply swallow every single fault I threw at you and not voicing out all my faults?

I know I may have not been a good girlfriend and putting tears in your eyes; No relationship is perfect, ever ?

And guys, you know what’s my problem?

I have a fucking huge ego, and it’s affecting my relationship.

How to solve?

- Dhiyana.

2010-04-05T01:16:00.000+08:00

Dhiyana

2010-04-04T03:55:00.002+08:00

I love the way my fingers just fall into yours. I love how your taste still lingers on my lips after that special goodnight kiss. I love how whenever I go to call someone I automatically dial your number. I love how you look at me with those gorgeous eyes and then you smile that sweet smile. I know right there that you will always be mine. I love how you hug me with the intention of never letting go. I love you more than words could ever show.

I love you chetchet.

Dhiyana

2010-04-01T00:41:00.003+08:00

I miss mardhiyana.

I miss my girls. SO MUCH.

I kept on thinking bout the times we went karaoke, Hangout at Clarke Quay and just go anywhere to have fun.

I want that day to come again. But without money, nothing is possible. Haish.

Everyone is busy. I'm starting to be busy now. Working.

I'm having this craving to eat at Ramen Ten, Sushi, and watching movies. Tons of movies. And I definitely have this urge to go on a date with my mum. I wanna treat her to the finest food life has to offer.

Gosh, I miss spending time with my mum too.

P.S. I MISS SITI MARDHIYANA MORE.

Babe, now you're feeling what I used to feel. Dulu kau kluar gan fir everyday, aku sorg kt rumah, tkde pape nk bikin. Mcm loner. Skrg kau pulak rase lonely. Gathering soon kay???

And those girls better make it!

((:

2010-03-30T22:45:00.005+08:00

School holiday, ROT and CHILL with all the love ones fullstop;

I know im bored, so yahhh. Hahahaha.

Nothing much i did during my school holiday, plus not even working!

you see how terukkk I am! hoho!

I MISS ALL MY GIRLFRIEND LAHHH!

Im like a loner you know, all are busy working unlike me.

but its okay, i understand!

EVERYDAY at home, what i did is watch movies at youtube!

and i recommend you this malay drama, 'ADNAN SEMPIT'.

funny & quite romantic, go and watch okaysssss.

Besides movie marathon-ing, i went cycling with love, bowling and chilling session with cousins, baking cupcakes, eating at simpang bedok almost thrice a weekkkkkkkkk!

Im offffffff to moviessssss againnnnnnnnnnn! Goodnytessssssssss!

Dhiyana

2010-03-23T22:51:00.006+08:00

Sometimes being a humans means minding your own business.

Sometimes falling in love means getting yourself hurt.

Sometimes being single means you're free to do whatever you want.

Sometimes being single means you have to feel lonely.

Sometimes falling down means you have to pick yourself up once again.

But most of the times, you must be happy and just be yourself.

Deenaa

2010-03-19T22:11:00.007+08:00

"It's gonna be hard, But I promise to make it work."

My dream boy;

I like boys that like to smile

and laugh at themselves once in a while

that can sit and talk for hours

and in the morning, pick me flowers

boys that like to be very clean

that are never ever mean

and can tell a witty joke

boys that do not like to smoke

I like boys that aren't afraid of bugs

that will always give me big warm hugs

like to sing and play guitar

that are happy being who they are

boys that like to be outside

and that aren't full of pride

boys that have an honest passion

with at least a slight hint of fashion

Boys that are funny and artistic

that are mostly optimistic

boys that are not very lazy

a little weird but not too crazy

boys that aren't afraid to cry

that will always give a second try

and will try to do their best

i want a boy not like the rest

A guy has finally caught my eye. This time, I'm gonna let it run on its own, Let time do its thing. If its meant to be, then good. If its not, "they come, they go".

Gosh, the way you make me smile, the way you're being yourself around me, the way I'm being myself around you. Its amazing how you make a fool out of yourself just to make me smile. I adore you. I do. You have your flaws, which I've seen. But I better not get my hopes up, It might end up being crushed.

Anyway, you make me heart smile. ((:

deenaa

2010-03-17T14:04:00.000+08:00

Dhiyana.

2010-03-14T19:22:00.005+08:00

"The worst creature?"

I've been reading this one particular blog which my friend told me to read. I find it funny, at the same time, true.

Its about Mats & Minahs.

Minahs

Scared of their BF.
Listens to their BF.
Dressed according to their BF preference.

Mats

Never allow their GF to get a hold of their handphone.
Wants a KETAT girl instead of the LONGGAR one.
Lies through their teeth.

The difference between MATS & MINAHS amaze me actually.

Mats, they want a KETAT one instead of the LONGGAR one. Why? Whats the point? To actually feel the difference and/or to enjoy the pleasure of it? Whats the point of wanting a girl who is still a virgin when you, yourself, are not a virgin?

And Minahs, hahaha. Really funny at times.

Whats the point of being a mother at such a young age? Isit fun? Are you like comparing yourself to your friend who gets married first? WTH right?

hahahahhaa. I find it hilarious. Go read it for yourself. You might be amazed too.

And believe me, its unisex. Mats can do it to Minahs, and Minahs can do it to Mats too. Read the one on 'Tak boleh for you, Boleh for me' and so on. (;

http://typicalmatsays.blogspot.com

Deenaa

2010-03-12T18:46:00.005+08:00

'Its hard to fall in love; its even harder to forget that person.'

Every night, I'll look out at the sky to see if there's any stars. If there is, I would smile and think of all the happy moments. If there isn't, I would frown and think of all the sad moments. I just love the sky at night. I could sit under the sky for hours just looking at the stars and moon and never get bored.

Its never ever easy to forget someone you truly love, even after 9 months of not keeping in contact. Sometimes, you leave that someone because you just have that feeling that someone else could make you happy, but the fact is, no one else could.

I'm not trying to be so damn emo now, I'm just stating what I feel.

I want his hugs, kisses and love, all over again. But I don't know if I'll get that chance ever again.

So anyway, update bout my life abit. Life's been shitty to me lately. But still surviving. Its holiday period now. I'm so damn happy.

FYI, for those who really wanna know bout my freaking life, I don't go round dating different guys every single day, ok. I'm sticking to one for now, which none of you should really care about.

So yah. I miss my gfs. I miss going out. I miss karaoke-ing with them. I miss going out having fun with them. I miss drinking with bbygirl. I miss going out with my best buds. I MISS IT SO MUCH.

P.S. Great memories will never be forgotten.

Deenaa

2010-03-09T22:36:00.003+08:00

YOU STABBED ME BITCH!

ISWEARIFUCKINGHATEYOU!

GOANDDIEANDNEVERCOMEBACK!

TWO FUCKING FACES, OH WELL!

Dhiyana.

2010-03-05T23:10:00.004+08:00

heyyyyy. wow, its been a long time i didn't have the time to update this blog.

im sorry if it is not gonna be a proper post and its going to be a long winded post. im typing what i feel and what i wanna say.

school is superrr tiring, projects all done but exam is just next week which starts on monday on the 8th!

am sooo not prepared fo it, but i've started on revising on my writing business and service excellence. sayang have been scolding me to start studying, but nahhh! hoho!

i had a great time with my childhood friends fo the last past few days. i love you girls so much, you girls are the light sticks that shines my entire life.

& tmrw i'll be meeting jun and the rest i guess, currently im dead boreddd, i just wish if bf is not working now & what we can do is, he fetch me & hop onto his bike and catch a movie :(

ohh yahhhhh, i have a secret to tell you readers!

i miss someone, she's a girl who use to be close to me, who shares all her problem with me, who enjoys part of her life with me, doing dirty stuffs together, but it seems that everything is fading away now. :'(

why must all this happen? it's like so awkward between you and me now. i just miss you gf.

so currently am so bored with my daily life, daily routine:

mon to fri schooling. sat, rot at home. sun, meet bf. && bf is quitting his job soon cos he's preparing fo his singapore police force NS. so bf is getting ready fo his NS on the 4th of may, i saddd and tak sukerrr :( u guys should see my facial expression when he enters NS. every night when he calls me i will cry. HOHO! nolahhh, am not that spoilt okayyy! i bet this year is a good and a bad year fo syg. NS i a bad thing, New SP bike he bought last month is a good thing, selling away his X1 bike is a bad thing cos there's so much memories with that bike, removing his 'P' plate on the may is a good thing, working in IR is a bad thing, cos he seems sooooo tired and often get sicked, and so on and so forth. kay, am done talking about him.

& i just hate girls who likes to talk big and likes to show off, & i super hate minahh, i swear i tell you.

and those who dislikes me fo no reasons, wth girls? so yahh, am now waiting fo syg to call me up and meeting lisha in like 30mins time & i gtg. nytes loves!

Dhiyana.

2010-02-26T23:08:00.003+08:00

"No use regretting because it already happen. In fact, be proud of it."

A few, I mean ALOT, of burden has been lifted off us right now. We're happy. We're so gonna enjoy.

All that's left is Entreprenuership Presentation which is on the Monday. After which, I'm soooooooo gonna enjoy myself.

I predict March is gonna be a good month. We plan to go clubbing with the girls and I plan to go clubbing with my Secondary school loves or even have a picnic together, to reunite once again. We'll always do this gathering 3-4 times a year. Depending on the time each of us have.

But most importantly, FREE OF PROJECTS.

I hope I can take the exam. I'm really hoping so. Btw, I wanna rest now. Sleepy. Tomorrow is gonna be a new day, new things to do and most of all, new things to look at. ((:

NIGHTS.

Deenaa

2010-02-17T22:01:00.003+08:00

"According to you, I'm difficult, hard to please, forever changing my mind. But according to him, I'm funny and irresistible."

Hello, I haven't been updating this blog for quite some time now.

I'm taking this time to update ok.

I'm at the worst point in life right now. Critical moment. Left brokenhearted, left unappreciated, left crying. I'm fine. Picking myself up and moving on because he's moving on faster than me. ((:

My time is occupied by school, friends, family and bike licence. I just find it cool if a girl ride a bike. So yah, I'm gonna ride it. One of the main reason is also because I'm tired of guys saying 'girls go for guys who has bike because of transport'. I wanna show that I don't go for guys who has bike because I can get a bike licence myself.

My brother has been a good brother recently. He's always there for me. Cheering me up when I'm at my lowest moment. I just love him.

Ok now, I'm off to do my WRB(although my eyes could hardly open). Bye.

P.S. I look so damn good without you.

deena

2010-02-15T14:06:00.005+08:00

im selling my curler away, cos am not using it anymore.

the condition is 8/10.

it is still working perfectly,

as i only use it twice and lend it to a fren once.

price can be nego.

email me fo more info.

Dhiyana.

2010-02-04T23:12:00.003+08:00

'I can't imagine myself without you. Its like losing a part of me.'

deena

2010-01-27T19:50:00.003+08:00

Every single time I hear this music in the blog, it reminds me of you.

I'm never tired of loving you.

No amount of words people throw at me will make me leave you.

Every time I reread our conversation with each other, I can't hep but smile.

We do fight, but thats what couples do.

Every time we fight, we could never stay mad at each other for to long.

Only now I knew how much you mean to me.

You're my world now.

I love you. Never deny that.

I miss you so much.

If this misses could kill, I'll be dead from the moment we part from each other after our meeting.

It grew stronger day by day.

Baby, be mine forever will you? (:

deena

SICK!

2010-01-27T12:07:00.008+08:00

I've just got home from POLYCLINC.

Down with Fever, Cough, Backbone pain, Sore Throat!

AND THE WORST PART IS TONSILS! :'(

Oooouuuccchhhh, so painful~

I want to stop smoking! uurrrggghhh!

but its harddddd.

okayokay, cut down smoking nowwww.

bf lecture, wahhhhhhhh! SIAN~

And guess what? I got 3 freaking days MC!

Im soooo boredddd at homeeeeeeee.

thanks to sayang, fo sending me to the polyclinic and send me home even u just got home from work in the morning. ly(:

ps: negative.

Dhiyana.

xoxo.

2010-01-24T23:58:00.005+08:00

HAPPY LEGAL 18th BIRTHDAY NUR SALISHA.

PARTNERS IN CRIME.

Saturday: meet sayang in the morning, meet my ketot girl at night and off to lisha's chalet. Eat, chit-chat, smoke and gave lisha a small token and off we go. Lepak with sayang and friends, off to Mr Prata at tampines and home sweet home. I had fun.

Dhiyana.

xoxo.

2010-01-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

Why do people keep interfering in my life?

Hey, its my FREAKING life.

Is my life that interesting to you? Like seriously lah. No life isit?

You knew something bout my life, it doesn't mean you have the right to go around and tell people bout it. You should have protected me instead of telling everyone my weaknesses and mistakes. You told him, I'm fine with it, Now you told the whole world. Get real will you.

Couldn't you just keep your mouth shut and live your life?

A great disappointment indeed.

deena

2010-01-20T20:57:00.004+08:00

Forgiving is easy, forgetting is difficult.

To look at your face and pretend nothing happened is not so easy.

But forgetting the hurt you've cause is never easy.

deena

2010-01-15T20:47:00.009+08:00

these are some out-dated pictures. heh.

i've been busy with school & school projects,

so i didn't haf the time to update my blog.

but anyway deenaa haf been updating lately, good thing.

so, these pictures below were taken last friday to seoul garden fo our lunch!

actually, we wanted to celebrate ramilah's birthday,

but eventually, she can't meet us last min due to some reasons.

sad you know, but the bright side is, i dapat date ngan nie minah ketot.

dah lame tak klua makan same2. haha.

so, i had a great afternoon after all.

tempting kannnnn.

and the next morning, bf says that he's not working, apeee lagiiii!

keluaaaaaa lerrrrrrrr! heeee. im so happy to meet him, i miss him soo much!

nowadays i dont get to meet him everyday like i use to. only weekends.

due to his working schedule. soo saddddd!

and when im otw home, i text-ed lisha.

and guess what?! we're meeting! omg, omg, im like so happpppyyyyyyy.

saw her and her babylove, send her babylove home and there we go to avenue 8 coffee shop.

ate mee hoon goreng kerang, teh tarik and coke.

than slack and smoke at the coffeeshop, woooaahhhh the feeling is supeerrrr niceeee laaaa!

so this is smokers, we intend to smoke after our food, cos the feeling like wooooaaahhhhhh~

'wooooaahhhhh' nyeeee pasal, we freaking FORGET to pay fo our food! gosh!

& we make a big U-turn to the coffee shop to pay our bills.

seeeee, how responsible we are! can get customers like us anot? hahahahaha.

after paying, we decided to chill at hougang park. and we had a lonnnnnggggggg convo.

and start uhh i heard shits and stuffs. blablablabla~

hahaha. nothing new from bitches huh.

just get yourself a life okay?

and after all again, i had fun againnnnn.

sayang was so mad at me cos i went home superrr late! hahahaha.

and btw, dhiyana here.

good nytes and sweet dreams.

Monthsary

2010-01-15T07:27:00.004+08:00

15 JANUARY 2010.

Five months of knowing each other.

Three months of hardship.

Three months of pain.

Three months of fighting.

Three months of laughter.

Three months of love.

Most importantly, I spent that THREE WHOLE MONTHS being with him.

Even if you think this is nothing to you, Its something I'll treasure every minute of every day.

I love you. ((:

deenaa

So Simple

2010-01-09T15:06:00.006+08:00

I want to be yours all over again.

Lets pretend baby that you've just met me.
And I never seen you before.
I'll tell all my friends that I think you're special,
And you'll tell yours.
I want to fall in love with you again.
I don't have to try, its so easy who needs to pretend.
I hold your hand and we don't have to let it go.
Its just funny. Lets just think.
Honey, let us just fall in love again.

((:

deenaa

Imperfect moment.

2010-01-08T18:31:00.003+08:00

You're just like a bubble. You'll be gone one day.

Fighting makes couples bond together even more. But why is it different for us?

I played the game by the rules. But why does it still rock?

Why must we be different? Why can't we be like them?

Why must our life be so complicated? Why??

I want answers. I need answers. I can't go on thinking everything will be better one day.

Because it won't. You and I know that it won't solve by itself.

I compare you to my ex's, I know. Maybe they're different from you, very different.

I'm imperfect. I'm weird. I'm random. Thats me. Maybe we are different.

Its written in God's book, where our future together will be.

I leave it to you. I leave it to fate. I'll just follow the flow and fulfill my part.

deena

The Misery

2010-01-06T00:10:00.003+08:00

Projects, Projects & more PROJECTS.

deena

2010-01-03T19:10:00.003+08:00

When boredom strikes.

* Do you remember the person you first kissed? - A memorable one too. :)
* Have you ever kissed someone you weren’t dating? - Yes.
* Ever kissed an ex after you broke up? - Yes.
* Ever kissed anyone on your top friends? - Only 2.
* Kissed someone with a gf or bf? - Nope.
* Ever kissed someone younger than you? - Nope.
* Older than you? - All are older than me.

Kissed or Been Kissed YES or NO

* On the cheek? - Yes.
* On the forehead? - Yes.
* On the nose? - Yes.
* On the lips? - Yes.
* With tongue? - Yes.
* In the park? - Yes.
* In public? - Yes.
* In a car? -Yes.
* In the movies? - Yes.
* On a bench? - Yes.
* Upside down? - Hell yeah.
* Sitting on their lap? - Yes.
* Laying down? - Yes.
* In broad daylight? - Yes.
* At night? - Yes.
* All of the above? - YES.

Your LAST kiss

* The last time you kissed someone? - 13 hours ago?

* Was it a game? (truth or dare, spin the bottle?) - NO.

* Was this person older than you? - HAHHAA. Yes.

* Was it a friend? - No.

* Do you regret this kiss? -Why would I?

Deenaa

2010-01-01T23:56:00.002+08:00

New Year Resolution

-To have a New Beginning, To always stay happy, To achieve something which my parents will be proud of.

My Target for 2010!

1. To lost weight!

2. To earn a position in Front Office for my attachment.

3. To save up money for important event such as clubbing or drinking.

4. Pay more attention in class.

5. Get good grades in class.

6. To be punctual for school.

7. Spend more time with boyfriend, please.

8. Complete Project before due date.

9. Go to the park near my house at night at least 3 times a month.

10. To make my mum proud of me.

A New Beginning. (:

deena

2010-01-01T23:30:00.004+08:00

BOLD & ITALIC the things i want in 2010.

1. Get a new phone.
2. Get addicted to Tumblr.
3. Get a new laptop.
4. Eat more chocolate!
5. Perform onstage during prom night.
6. Be a better person.
7. Scream ‘Ron Weasley is the king of the world’ in a crowd.
8. A more peaceful world.
9. Do fun stuffs like kiss random guys/girls.
10. Get new sexy red hot bra and panty.
11. Help mum with housework.
12. Complete homework before due date.
13. Be nice to teachers.
14. Dump current boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Get a new boyfriend/girlfriend.
16. Be on TV.
17. Get over Edward Cullen.
18. Avoid scribbling stuffs in public toilet.
19. Throw away all pink stuffs.
20. Hang out more with best friends.
21. Reread Twilight Saga.
22. Watch old movies.
23. Get tickets to concerts for best friends.
24. Eat healthily.
25. Learn how to cook.
26. Get a new crush.
27. Write a love poem.
28. Buy a guitar.
29. Draw a portrait of Taylor Lautner and put in on Tumblr.
30. Compose a song for your crush.
31. Study Maths and be good at it.
32. Save electricity.
33. Get a new pet
34. Think about the future.
35. Save cash.
36. Plant more trees.
37. Be the first one to know about all the juicy gossips.
38. Get a new hairstyle.
39. Go vege.
40. Learn a new Italian recipe.
41. Exercise!
42. Fall in love with someone older.
43. Post more quotes on Tumblr.
44. Dress like a rockstar on birthdays.
45. Get addicted to Harry Potter.
46. Be a cheerleader.
47. Book a ticket and fly somewhere.
48. Write a fictional story.
49. Appreciate all the crazy things around you.
50. Do crazy experiments involving explosive chemicals.

btw, dhiyana here[:

2009-12-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

'I've never disrespected anyone more than I disrespect you.

No words can ever describe how much I hate you.'

deena

2009-12-27T10:49:00.002+08:00

Hey, deena here.

Omg, I've finally reach home. 4 days 3 nights at my grandparent's house. Without any technology. I admit, its boring, but it was relaxing. I miss Mardhiyana so much. And Syafiq too. :D

*The picture above* Reminded me of my 2009. I love this year. Everything happened. The good things and the bad things. But it turned out to be a great year after all. :))

Thursday

I had a date with my mum. It wasn't a date actually, we went shopping instead. I had so much fun with mummy. She bought Bonia bag, Carlo Rino wallet and a shoe. While I bought a bag and 2 shoes. Heaven. hahaha.

We had to lie to my dad and brother so that we can go shopping. Then my dad fetch us, both of their faces were so angry. But we just ignore. Went to Malaysia after putting our stuff at home.

Friday

I had to wake up early to help my aunt do a spring cleaning because there was gonna be a Kenduri. Then helped my grandmother and my aunties in the kitchen to cook. It was fun. Then we got ready for the Kenduri. There was so many guys over there. Me and ayu label them as YP. They looked young and they were sitting on top of their bikes.

After the Kenduri, we had to clean it one more time. Then off to sleep.

Saturday

We did some cleaning AGAIN. Then at 2pm, we went to TESCO to do some shopping. After we reach home, we BBQ two chickens. After which, I sat with my mum and my aunties and talked bout Supernatural stuff such as bomoh.

I still couldn't forgive my dad for what he did to me. Even if one day I were to forgive, I will surely never forget. Have you ever heard this quote, 'Forgive and Forget'. Well, its not in my dictionary. This is human nature, even if we can forgive, we will definitely not forget.

Mardhiyana messaged me at 9.42pm. I told my mum and we went awwww. ahhaha. Baby messaged me at 10 plus. I checked it today. :)

HOLY SHOOT!

I really don't know how the whole family knew about Syafiq. It's like the WHOLE family knew about it except my mum and dad. But they do suspect. They keep disturbing me bout Syafiq. They even asked me questions.

So anyway, I'm freaking tired now and I need to sleep. Kay bye.

2009-12-26T23:46:00.003+08:00

Dhiyana here.

i know im being so random now.

My Wishlists:

ipodTouch.

i wanna get either one of this phone, but i prefer the Samsung Preston above. (purple)

i will work hard to get this gadgets. i want a job very soon!

2009-12-20T02:36:00.010+08:00

19 DECEMBER 2009.

im loving every single moment on this date.

basically its my second monthsary with bf.

it was 1.35am in the morning, syg called me and say he's outside my doorstep and asked me to open my door gate.

he came all the way down to my place just to make me feel better, we hugged tightly and i feel like crying.

i miss him soo much! its been quite some time we didn't met due to his working schedule. (but its less than a week uhh) hahaha.

we had some miscommunication the whole day and thats the reason why he came down to meet me.

and im not only feeling better, but surprised me with a lil gift and say, ''b, this is fo you. happy monthsary''

i was like, ''aaaaaawwwwwwhhhhhhhh, thank you. you're so sweet! i thot u didn't remember our monthsary, but you did.''

he gave me a pendent with our picture[:

and if you're reading this syg, i just love you soo much.

you've really change me into a better person, i woke up from my dreams, leaving all my bad and dirty attitude behind.

you're the first guy i love soo much, obsessed with soo much, thinking to go far with and close with soo much!

you gave me everything i want, u shower me with everything and pamper m

e with everything. thank you soo much syg.

and i would like to say, thank god i found you firdaus.

i will cherish and treasure you in my heart.

and again went out with him in the afternoon and headed back to tampines, lepak with his friends.

than, home sweet home.

Basically, i don't care what people gonna say about me anymore.

im not as bad as you're thinking. i still spend my time with friends and my girlfriends. aku tak besarkan jantan okay.

im sorry if im too obsessed with my boyfriend.

mind your words please.

Mon, will be going back to RASA with deenaa to book our names fo work, than to bugis to meet up with the rest fo our projects.

im seriously in need of cash, starting work soon!

and im dead bored now.

webby with deenaa. waiting fo bf to call me.

okay than, thats all fo today. byebye.

toodles! xoxo.

the pendent he bought fo me.

webby with deenaa.

btw, dhiyana here.

2009-12-19T17:30:00.002+08:00

'Everything happens for a reason.

You're sweet as a sugar. You're precious like a gem. I don't have to hide myself from you. You know me better than I know myself. Its hard to deny something so special.'

Deenaa here.

I miss school so bad. I want to go back to school. But I'm loving my holiday so far. Sat at home and cooking different dishes. ((:

I'm thinking bout next week schedule. Its gonna be damn pack. Monday, Projects. Tuesday, Beach. So far, Wednesday I don't have any plans, yet. Thursday, Classic Manicure and Pedicure then off to Malaysia for a family gathering, till Sunday.

I'm going to listen to songs now since I'm dead bored. Enjoy your day.

P.S. You're more than what I want you to be.

2009-12-18T22:03:00.004+08:00

Dhiyana here.

pictures above were taken last few days.

both of us takde keje, so yahh, take pictures! hehs.

currently, im bored at home.

All the irritating humans are arnd me now.

FCUK!

Heyy aniwae, i wanna enjoy on this coming countdown, any plans people?

Lets groove on dancefloor together! ((:

& i find this PERIBAHASA meaningful btw,

find the meaning yourself.

''seperti kacang melupakan kulit''

PS:imissmyboyfriendalot.

2009-12-15T23:23:00.006+08:00

15 December 2009

I dont know what to say about today.

I spent the day with my cousins. And as usual, I did some thinking and I came to a decision. Its for a better future. :))

Spent a day watching 2 movies with Nurul at her lappy. It was fun. Its been a long time since I last had such a wonderful time with my cousin. And like cousins do, we did some sharing, about the guys in our life while munching on honey chicken wings and cheesefries. hahahhaa!

Other than that, I have no life.

I'm counting down to tomorrow night. OMG YES UH!

I'm going off now. bye.

Btw, deenaa here. enjoy your day.

Crushed my heart at the palm of your hand.

Over and over again.

If you never meant to hurt me,

Then just go.

Fighting day and night,

This is so messed up.

If I walk out,

you'll have to understand..

2009-12-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

I'm slowly getting sick and tired of this game that you're playing.

Its way beyond the limits now. Good luck trying to do what you're gonna try to do later on, because believe me, this is the stage where it's gonna be hard for you now.

-deenaa

2009-12-08T23:08:00.002+08:00

Deenaa here.

Thanks my dear for changing the setting. hahaha.

I MISS YOU TOO CHETCHET!!!

I've been having dreams and I've been thinking bout that someone for quite a while now. I'm wondering, is there a sign to it??

Anyway, to me, whoever hate tag us is either;

JEALOUS or
Basically has NO LIFE.

So which category do you fall in??

Like what dhiyana said, you can talk to us if you have a problem with us, we wont bite. We're matured, but I can't say the same for you. The cheek of some people.

Ok now, I've been having a not-so-good holiday so far. I need to find a job soon. REAL SOON. I miss the belokians and 'THE GUYS'.

Spent a lil bit of my time yesterday with ros, aisyah, zanne and jimmy. Today, I went to school coz we got some Green Club excursion. We went to Dragon Kiln at Jalan Bahar. Cool. After which I went to Jurong Point with them to grab a dinner. Azhar was funny. hahaha.

I'm gonna upload the pictures in my next post aite. I'm just too tired now.

Ok now, good night people. <3

2009-12-08T21:39:00.004+08:00

Christmas Party at our very own college with the Down Syndrome Children's.
The little boy in GREY is so damn cute right?
Basically, his name is HAFIZ. The other two kids is his siblings.
IMY hafiz. U're so cute! and i will always remember you! you will always be in my heart(:
Look at him. ((: im always smiling when i see you.

During the Down Syndrome Association Volunteer work at GV Vivo City.

And this is my ketot. She's doing the same role as me.

Dhiyana here anyway.

TO DEENAA: i've alr change the post setting. now can put color2 wordings! hahahahaha! faster, say thank you to me! imy ketot chet!

And to that particular guest, why u have to say deenaa merepek?

just don't disturb her life okay, cos she doesn't disturb yours.

Please do us a big favor here, pls don't hate tagged us.

Unhappy? talk to us personally aites, we don't bite.

We're matured girls and so do you.

And basically, i enjoyed deenaa's, nani's and bf birthday party.

AWESOME!

Next, will be my little fish ball cousin's birthday, FATIN.

AND OH YAHH! I JUST MISS OUTINGS! MORE OUTINGS PLEASE BABYGIRLS!

Okay, i gtg now. I wanna watch BEYONCE's and RIHANNA's videos on youtube. *melts*

byebye and good nights babes.

bf msging!

2009-12-05T11:11:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD FIRDAUS
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

So basically, today is my bf 19th birthday.
I'm wishing him a blissful and a joyous birthday((:
I LOVE YOU SAYANG.

PS: I had fun with you last night.

Love; Dhiyana.

2009-12-01T23:46:00.009+08:00

Dhiyana.
Let pictures do the talking aye.
Deenaa's Birthday Surprise!

will soon upload the pictures of Christmas Party with all the Down Syndrome childrens. Sleepy now, lazy to upload more. Nytes loves!

2009-11-29T13:05:00.004+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to Me!

Deenaa here and I'm freaking legal. hhahah.

I had the greatest advance birthday celebration from my family and friends and not forgetting, babyboy. :)

Friday, I celebrated my birthday with my family at Malaysia with my grandparents, aunties and uncles.

Saturday, I had the time of my life with the kids from the Down Syndrome Association. After which we went to meet jun and lisha at Suntec then we went to vivo after buying a gift. Sat at the sky park. And shockingly, babyboy was holding a cake with mardhiyana and jun near him. I was indeed surprised. Speechless.

But I had tons of laughs and fun with them. Its been forever since I last saw jun and lisha and having the 4 of us going out together. And to make this better, he was there. I miss him so much.

I love you girls alot and I love you too baby. :)

Thanks for everything.

Today, Basically I'm bored to death. Just lying on my bed hoping for someone to message me to say they want to meet me. Gosh. Dead bored.

Bye.

2009-11-27T00:06:00.003+08:00

Dhiyana here anyway.
Basically, just got back home from Night Safari((:
Well, my trip rating there was 6/10.
bought accessories and handmade sling bag, yay! *happy*

And ohh yaaa, SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI to all my muslim friends & cousins.

and also, im kinda excited for this Saturday event at school, Christmas party with all the down syndrome childrens. awwwhhh, so looking forward for it.

i miss this chetchet above.
i love you chetchet.
i know i've been giving you soo much shits.
im sorry and ily.
muacks.

ps: i miss girlfriends soo much! :'(

2009-11-25T20:49:00.002+08:00

Deenaa here.

OMG, For the first time, I cooked a beef steak. And like wow, I'm impressed, It was quite tasty. Very nice indeed. I'm not complimenting on my own cooking, but my brother and parents said so. Happy. :D

So anyway, I can't wait for Saturday. Coz I'll be having an activity in school which I'm excited for. And I can't wait for sat evening.

I miss baby alot. ALOT. :(

2009-11-20T23:50:00.004+08:00

im officially~
19th isn't an unlucky day.
ily sayang.

Dhiyana.

2009-11-20T22:58:00.005+08:00

"Cry, its the best way to let your sadness out.
Smile, Its the best medicine to cure a broken heart.
Laughter, Its the best way to control the tears."

This is my point of view.

Deenaa here btw.

How are you? Fine? I know I'm random. Like hello, this IS me.

So anyway, let me ask you this question, have you ever have that feeling of hating someone at the same time, loving them?

Well, I'm feeling that now. Baby, I hate you but I totally love you(Its a good thing btw). ((:

I love you. :D

2009-11-17T20:20:00.004+08:00

'Sorry', It seems to be the easiest word to say nowdays. What a word.

'Hold me like this is the last time you're gonna see me.'

I want to be the old ME.

Deenaa

2009-11-14T00:38:00.007+08:00

Dhiyana here.

Basically less talking more pictures okay.
Lots of pictures to be uploaded, but i will upload mane yg perlu jeee kays.
SHAGGED fo this past few days & weeks! Damn it siaaa~
school is soo tiring plus doing nothing going school. wth!

COUSIN'S WEDDING.
look at our oily face & bad hair day :(

WHEN BOREDOM STRIKES.

PERANGAI BUDAK GEMS!

CUTENESS & SWEETNESS IN NUR DIYANA R(:

Thats all fo today!
hehs. hitting the bed veryvery soon.
Love asleep as tmrw his working, Gf diyana met boifey.
so yeahh, nytesnytes.

PS: imy jun. meet up soon okays.

2009-11-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

Happy Friday The 13th!

Deenaa here.

I know we've not been updating our blog regularly due to school, projects, friends and stuff, But we'll try our best to update it regularly ok?

So anyway, I just found out that today is Friday the 13th thanks to my brother. So basically, they say that friday the 13th is the day of bad luck. So far, So good. No bad luck.

Basically I miss my guy friends who I'm very close to. We've hardly time to meet and update each other. But its ok. I know everyone's busy now. Even I'm busy too.

There's flag day tomorrow, and I'm not yet asleep and I still have the heart to go out. HAHAHHA! So anyway, after flag day, gonna go out home and change then meet mardhiyana. Gonna sleep her house tomorrow! weee~~ I wanna meet jun and lisha tomorrow, by hook or by crook.

2 more days. (((:

2009-11-06T16:58:00.002+08:00

Deenaa here.

OMG!!!! There was a pervert following me back just now. He took the same bus as me. At first, he sat at the back then he shifted seats and sat at the chair next to mine. And as I turned to look at him, he was looking at my legs. And I didnt thought that he would alight at the same place as me but he did. He followed me from the back. I felt something was wrong, And ya, he followed me till my lift area. I was so scared that I called mardhiyana and talked to her. I think he thought that I was calling the police, so he quickly turned around and walked towards woodlands ring primary school.

Like WTH? And when I reached at my level, I looked down and saw him walking to the traffic light and crossing the road to another side. Like seriously, WTH?

Ok anyway, I'm at home and basically, I'm freaking bored.

A piece of good news, Finished up the Report 1. But have yet to start on the powerpoint. Other than that, I hate my day. So yah.

I'm gonna slowly die of boredom or I'm just gonna sleep. So yah, BYE.

2009-11-05T14:22:00.002+08:00

Deenaa.

I went to visit the doctor just now. Because I've been having headaches since last week and it doesn't get any better even when I ate my medicine. And when I went to the doctor just now, the doctor told me its due to my stressness in school. Projects is killing me.

Projects. urgggh. Like wth.

I'm feeling weak. But I wanna go out. I wanna meet someone.

I miss Junaina too. I miss outings with Lisha, Jun and Mardhiyana. Remember girls? Good times.

'You just can't trust some people.'

2009-11-04T00:34:00.004+08:00

MEET; FIRDAUS(:

hello.
Dhiyana here.

so as usual, busy with SCHOOL~
have been busy with projects, school and outings.
omg! firstly, i miss JUNAINA sooooo muchhhyyy!
im sorry babe, i've been very2 busy for these past few weeks. damn it! will meet up soon okays love?

so yahh, reached home everyday LATE arnd 7plus. TIREDDDDD!
went to accompany lisha to MCDONALD just now to have her dinner.
brought lappy and webby with diyana. hehehehehe!
& Firdaus came down my place to surprise me. i was shocked to see him infront of me!
we didn't plan to meet actually.
hahahahahahahaha(:
so yeahh, had fun today.

i miss cousins!
kay, nak tido! byebye(:
NYTESNYTES.

2009-11-02T23:23:00.002+08:00

Deenaa here.

Well, this is the little cutey devil that scratched my eye.

I'm sleepy. I miss Muhammad Syafiq. I'm gonna sleep now. Very Very sleepy.

Kay dh. nighty night.

2009-11-02T00:51:00.003+08:00

Deenaa here.

First of all, HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY TO MARLYANA AND
HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY TO WAN FARIS.

Second, I'm going off now. :D

2009-10-29T19:33:00.002+08:00

'CUTEY CUTEY'

Deenaa here.

I had fun in school today because I had so much laugh in class. But since I'm feeling abit sick, I slept for about 3 hours of school time today. I didn't even have the energy to put on some make-up today and my face was looking freaking pale that even my teacher asked me. I think because I'm sick and I didn't put on any make-up that my face turns out so damn pale.

I'm suppose to end school at 12 tomorrow. But since there's gonna be a video shooting and project discussion, I'll go home kinda late. But I don't care because I just want all the projects to be finished so I can enjoy my Saturdays without thinking bout it.

Now my head hurts real bad, I'm off to take a rest. Bye.

2009-10-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

Deenaa here.

Hey hey.

I miss them alot. Miss hanging out with them every Saturday and ton till 2-4am then go home riding the Night Rider. I miss all this.

I miss lisha. I miss Jun. I miss Saturdays outing.
I miss babyboy. I miss his hugs. ALOT.

Practically, I miss having the time of my life.

I'm so stress now with schools and stuff. I just hate being stress because I know I cannot control my anger at all when I'm stress.

Urgggh, bodoh nye project.

Ok dh. want to chat with babyboy. dh bye.

2009-10-23T21:41:00.008+08:00

Hey ya all.

Basically, Dhiyana here.
Its been a long time we didn't update the blog.
We've been busy with school and stuffs.
Excuse us okays? Hahahahaha~

School have been great. Outings have been great too.
But money flowing out was not a good thing to happen.
UURRRGGGHHH~

More & more projects coming up. STRESS.
Will start on the projects soon alrights girls?

Meanwhile, im excited fo the QUEST thingy at school.
We've form up a group of 5 members which are, Me, Nani, Hidayu, Rahayu and also Wan Faris. Its gonna be funnnnn & i really can't wait fo the thing!
But sayang, the rest can't join us, as maximum no. of people is only 5 in a group.

I miss my girls especially Jun, Lisha & also my dearest cousin, FatinCuppycake.
When will i get to meet u girls?
Im so busy with school! Damn it.
Nah, its okay. Gfs in school dah cukup HAPPY~
Heeeeeee.

More outings coming up soon btw...
Haahaahaaa.
& more money will be withdrawn((:

Till here than. I will blog a proper one soon alrights.
byebye loves.
And this are some pictures taken during F1 work and training day.

Me and Anisah. That Crazy girl~ Hahahaha. No Offence eyy babe.

2009-10-23T00:19:00.004+08:00

Deenaa

Hey hey hey. I'm sad/happy/speechless/angry. All the mixed emotions uh. ahhaha. I'm happy that I got to meet babyboy. Eventhough it was only for 1 hour 30 mins, It was nice. I like..... hahahaa.

Belo guy. hahaha. I miss his hugs already. :(( So anyway, I'm off to sleep now. I got a test tomorrow. damn.

Kay dh bye.

2009-10-22T02:23:00.002+08:00

Hello earthlings.

Deenaa here.

Sorry that we weren't able to blog these days. We've been busy with school works, projects and friends.

So anyway, To make this blog alive, I'll just say a few things.

School; DUMBASSSSSSSSS. Projects projects projects. One day I'll die of projects I guess. So anyway, Other than that, School has been fine, other than reaching school at 8am and ends at 5pm. pfffffft. No more time to go out at all. Sheeesh.

Life; So far so good. Webcamming with babyboy now. Its been 2 weeks straight. Everynight. Night till morning. Been busy to meet each other. But its ok. I understand. So anyway, I want to post a picture of him sleeping, but he'll kill me. hahahaa.

So anyway, Been fucking busy this week. I could even skip school for someone who needs me. And friday is my freaking class test. Like WTF?? Urggggh.

I wonder if I even have time for my friends or my boyfriend.

Haish.

Ok dh. I want to continue webcamming till dawn. ahhaa. bye.

2009-09-29T00:56:00.003+08:00

"A simple false information, can lead to disaster.
A simple secret, can lead to a seperation.
A very simple lie, can make someone lose trust in you."

Well, congratulation, I just lost my trust in you. Just speechless.

Deenaa

2009-09-23T18:56:00.003+08:00

'The feelings just starts to grow within me. Its just beyond my control. I just dont want it to shoot so high up, then fall down to the ground.'

Deenaa

2009-09-23T17:02:00.003+08:00

Dhiyana here.

kay, basically i don't haf any pictures to upload as my USB digi is with JUN.
will upload as soon as possible when i get my USB wire from jun okay.

well, first day of raya was SUPERB!
i enjoyed myself and im loving it every single year, i do.

and yeah, this week will be the most busiest and tiring week fo me!
24th Sept - Training fo F1.
25th Sept - Training fo F1.
26th & 27th - WORKKKINGGG.

basically im working in Conrad Hotel fo th F1 period.
me and babygirl will be working in the amber lounge, where it is a high class night club fo all the F1 racers and also the celebrities!
and we both haf been praying hard to see BEYONCE crashing in the club! woohooo~
*Hoping so*

so yeahh, raya outings after that okays friends?

2009-09-22T18:45:00.004+08:00

(me, my aunt and ayu)

Hey hey hey. Deenaa here.

OMXZZG! Wanna know something? I wanted to post bout this ytd, but somehow, I forgot all bout it. So here it goes.

My youngest aunt from my dad's side got possessed by 15 'THINGS'. And it was 5 days before hari raya. And guess what 'THINGS' was in her? 10 Fatimah Rocker, 4 Polong(the flying head) and 1 Sundal Bolong. And after she went to the Bomoh in Muar, the bomoh cleansed her body already and told her to come again for the next 3 days. And when she went the next day, guess how many was in her this time round. Believe it or not, 115!

And wanna know whos the fucking idiot who sent this thing to her? Her ex's parents. Like WTH right? Her ex is jealous of her because she's married and has one beautiful daughter.

I just dont get people this days. must keep all this THINGS. They're just making their lifes difficult so as their death.

And guess what? My grandparent's place(my father's side) IS HAUNTED. Damn. All the THINGS are 'sitting' in my aunt's dark dark room(no light at all in that room. not even the daylight light enters the room). Freaking dark.

And when I slept at the room which I usually sleep with my parents, I kept on waking up every freaking 2 HOURS. And it takes me 5 mins to go back to sleep. and believe me, during that 5 mins, things just wont let me sleep. But since I'm a heavy sleeper, I just sleep. ahahah.

Then the next morning, woke up, took a shower, got ready then went out of the house. Seriously, I'm more 'penakut' now. last time I dont really give a damn, but now, Penakut nk mampos.

So anyway, I uploaded my raya pictures at facebook. I'm just super lazy to upload. Coz I bet, by me typing this whole thing, It'll take up quite a few space in the blog. By adding pictures, I think it occupy the whole page. so, no. hahaha.

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Oh, and did I tell you? All my Uncles and Aunties from my dad's side thought I have a boyfriend and asked me when I'm gonna get married. hahaha. I laughed and said that I dont have any boyfriend and i'm too young to get married. Then my mum interrupted the convo by saying, "klau nana(thats what they call me) ade boyfriend, penampar die kene. blaja dulu*then she laugh*"

HAHAHHAA!!!

I'm the eldest girl amongst the rest of my cousin and they expect me to marry soon. Coz my abg sedare is getting married soon and they cant wait for my turn. like WTH kan? I'm still laughing at the thought of that. ahhaha!

2009-09-21T18:36:00.011+08:00

OMG! I'm so freaking happy to be in Singapore again.

Btw, Deenaa here.

Try imagining me without lappy and anything to do there. Believe me, I slept the whole day. I woke up every 3 hours, looked around, watch tv, took a spin around the kampong with the bike, then slept AGAIN. until buke(on sat).

When buke came, OMG, what a spread.

This was the processing of the lampu pelita. My dad was the one who pasang it. this happened before buke.

We lit the lampu pelita up after buke. This is only lit up during hari raya.

After lighting it up, my dad and all my uncles took out the mercun and we all played. ahahhaa!! here are the pictures.

Here are pictures of my granparents house(my mum's side) and pictures of my cousin.

Oh yah, let me introduce you people to my most mentel and manje cousin. And at the same time, super annoying.

Kecik2 dh pandai buat gitu. ahahha

Thats all. Some are in my father's camera. So I'll upload next time kay. And I just took on my mum's side of the family coz I'm super close to them. I didnt take on my father's side. Oh oh oh, on my way home just now, I bought CHESSY CHICKRONI. hahaha. Super delicious i tell you. Cheesy...UMMMMMMM. YUMMY. ahhaha.

Sorry if I didnt put any of my raya pictures. haha. Its in my dad's camera. hahaha. Next time kay.

Bye. enjoy your hari raya kay. I miss mardhiyana. ahaha.

BYE!

2009-09-17T19:46:00.002+08:00

"It took me forever to make you fall for me,
But it took you just one second to fall for another."

Deenaa here.

Hello dear belo earthlings.

Hahaha. I'm freaking random seh. So anyway, I had the whole day to think/clean/get-ready-ingrediet-to-cook. But mostly think and clean. ahhaha.

Well, I'm not sure why i thought of this but yah, I did. People used to say to me that I'm a 'Proud' person who dont speak to people and my face is not the friendly type. HAHAHAHHHAHAHA! Ok, when I think bout this, I swear I laughed. hahhaa.

For those who doesnt know me, will say that. They will always say that I'm a 'PROUD' person and I dont mix with anyone but guys. AHHAHAHAA!!! But hey people, Once you get to know me, You'll think I'm just crazy and super friendly. I'm not trying to 'banggekn' myself. But I'm stating facts.

And FYI, I have quite a number of guy friends. But it doesnt mean I stick to only guys and dont have any girl friends. I have many more girl friends then guy friends. And don't assume I cant live without guys, coz I can. Do you want me to show it to you? ahaha.

Well, people tend to assume things. Thats it, ASSUME. They don't know the real facts. ahahhahaa. I can just laugh.

So cut it short, I'm freaking friendly to the ones who deserve it, I'm not 'Sombong', I love to mix around with people, And please, try not to mess with me. I may look all nice and patient type, But once you step on my toe, believe me, I can do the craziest stuff.

But I'm friendly. HAHAHAHHAA! Don't be scared, I NEVER bite. ;)

So anyway, My whole of this week is so called, great. ahaha. I did tons of spring cleaning. My prepaid is low, So dont be mad if I dont reply to your messages or pick up your calls. But I can receive messages.

I'm gonna play my fishing game now. ahhaa. BYE.

Take care dumb dumb.

P.S. I've moved on, But at times, I do look back in life and smile without regrets. :))

2009-09-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

'Love makes the time pass. Time makes love pass.'

Deenaa here.

I find it meaningful.

I've been enjoying my holiday so far. hahaa. Btw, My dad took our hari raya clothes already. I swear I like every single hari raya clothes I have this year. Especially the brown colour. I like it alot. ahaha.

Well, I just dont know why, But I have no mood to raya this year. The feeling isnt there. I'm not sure why.

Ok, I'll do a proper update next time. I'm just too sick to continue.

P.S. No matter how strong I've become, I still miss you.

2009-09-15T13:39:00.007+08:00

Dhiyana.

its been awhile i didn't update the blog.
am busy with housework, schooling and esp outings.
i didn't even have time to touch the desktop;
reached home late at night or morning, shower and SLEEP.
it seems like my daily life routine huh.
spoilt.

so basically, now is my school holiday~
& 5 more days to RAYAAA.
omg! things are getting nearer and faster this year.
im not ready laaa.

and my outings fo this few weeks was awesome, i guess!
went geylang, break fast at sakura with fahmi last night, went m'sia with mom, and of course more!
so yahh, i had fun(:
and also not forgetting that particular night i had.
you know, i know okay babe. hahahaha.

F1 period i have to work at conrad hotel.
but still considering, urrgghh!
its like so rushinggg.

AND why are some girls so bitchy?
they will talk, smile, laugh, pose so hard to be like one.
and will wait their pictures to be commented by the guys saying they're HOT or SEXAY.
LIKE WTF?
i never had a friend like them, so maybe im just not used to it.
my girlfriends ain't so bitchy like them, my girlfriends are all FUN "bitches".
and im not only saying girls only, but some guys are also trying hard to be called as an "HOTSTUFFS"
He dates alot of girls out, comment on every girls pictures saying they're sweet, cute, pretty etc. but does it really comes from the heart or it was just a saying?
you even wants to get to know girls of same connections, fo example: their own friends, bestfriends???
this is what im seeing that's going on.
and this is what i feel by posting this out.
cut it short, they are all BULLSHITS yaww.

and to lisha, i still love you. no matter what. Janji?
if i could take some of your burdens, pains, i would.
babyboy due-ing soon. please don't get stress up, eat more, drink more milk, STOP smoking okay. hehs. we'll be there on your delivery day, we'll make u feel like a star on that day(:
please don't be sad. Stop Crying, be strong. concentrate on your coming O's too. study hard babylove. xoxo.

"ade tactic nak buat nie benda, kau carik tempat urat die, than kau massage2 tempat situ, it works!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
funny siaaa.

bye loves.

2009-09-13T20:16:00.005+08:00

Deenaa

'Too much of words with so little actions.
Too many likes with so little love.
A simple words means alot,
But with so many actions, means one word.
Its hard to gain trust.
But its easy to lose it.
Its easy to fall for someone,
But its very difficult to even forget a single memory.'

You lied to me. But I'm thankful that I lied to you too.
I'm me. I never wanna lie bout that.
I'm just gonna enjoy my time now.
I'm not gonna give a sh*t now.
I smile because I'm happy/sad/shocked.
So basically, I'm just gonna smile or laugh.
hahahhaa.

Body full of aches is so not fun.
But getting it is FUN. ahahhahaa.
;P

2009-09-12T01:53:00.002+08:00

deenaa

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAA!!!

OMFG! I'm not sure if I should cry or just laugh or whatever shit. hahaha.

Like, its so freaking normal thing which happens to me, so I'm like used to it. So I dont find the reason to cry. ahahhaahahaa!!

HAHAHHAHAHAHA! I'm freaking speechless. REALLY REALLY SPEECHLESS. hahahahhaahaha!

Nasibku malang lah kan.

2009-09-04T13:20:00.001+08:00

HELLO!
Dhiyana here.
Here's some of the pictures taken with girlfriends~
Let all the pictures do the talking alrights!

And also here are some pictures taken during KARAOKE.

so yahh, basically they are all my laughing pills.
i enjoyed my day & time spent with them.
LOVE KORGGG!

AND OHH YAHH BEFORE I FORGOT!
have u girls decide on what to wear for raya?
okay, what i mean is SHOESSSSS!
why are girls so leceh uhs?
haiyaaaa.

basically, i want to buy wedges heels.
nah, i guess any heels will do lahs.
but idk which want to pick as my kebaya is maroon in color this year.

here's are some of the pictures i went online to search.
some of them are from charles & keith and topshop.

so yahh, still deciding.
hehe. till here than. tc!

2009-09-03T10:33:00.002+08:00

Hello freaks!

Deenaa here.

Gosh. What a week. And next monday is the BEV exam. Gosh, I'm dead.

Anyway, my week has been dull and nothing to do. Sat at home and rot everyday. But today, different! I'm going out today! Errrr, but not sure where. ahahaa. Its either I meet bbygirl today or I buke with Ayun. But that depends. If bbygirl wants to meet me today, then I meet her. :D

Miss bbygirl seh. Its been 3 days now. This is like the maximum days that I didnt see her. Usually it'll only be 1-2 days. If I dont get to meet her today, then I'll just meet her tomorrow. Heeee.

I miss afad. I was suppose to meet him yesterday night under my blk, but he didnt msg me at all. :(

Oh yah, I freaking swear I hate those HYPOCRITES BITCHES. They deserve to be called bitches. Two-faces Bitches. It doesnt pay to be kind, especially to THEM. Go and die lah. Destroying people's life is what they're good at. Well, they are bestfriends anyway, good for you girls. Well, They dont deserve friends other then each other. Dh lah eh, bulan puase nk sakitkn hati org. Menguji kesabaran org je.

I never do revenge. I strongly believe in karma. What goes around comes back around. If you do bad things to someone, something bad will happen to you soon.

Ok lah. Fasting month is the month where everyone/anyone test your patience. I'm just gonna smile. :D

2009-09-01T17:22:00.002+08:00

Deenaa here.

Confession time;
1) I'm sucha Emo!
2) I'm a sucha disappointment to the people around me.
3) I go out with different types of guys.(just friends)
4) I still think about that guy.(Forgetting very soon)
5) Rejected a guy yesterday.
6) A guy wants to date me.
7) I'm a total nutcase. hahaha!(not literally)
8) I HATE BEING COMPARED.
9) I love being wild sometimes.
10) OMG! I sucha a straightforward person.

Thats all. Thats my confession, whats yours????

hahahaa. Yes Its true, I'm crazy at times. I will randomly laugh or cry or just smile, thats why people thinks I'm crazy. Well, I'm me. I swear, I HATE BEING COMPARED. If you ever compare me with anyone, I'll either voice out or just give you that 'malaz-nk-layan' look. I'm different. I'm not sure if its in a good way or bad way, but I dont really give a damn. Hate me, your pasal!

Errr, what else?? Oh oh oh, I have a crush. :D Ridhwan. hahahaha. I have ALOT of guy friends, dont mistake me for being a slut or a bitch or whatsoever, but this is me. I grew up with guys around me. Since I was in kindergarten. Someone told me before, "Let there be alot of guy friends, but only have one boyfriend(love)". If anyone has anything to say about this, PLEASE, do so infront of my face. Coz I hate people with 'young people' attitude. Budak2 katekn.

Ermm, Oh, people dearest to me are, My mum, brother, mardhiyana, nurul ayunni, khairil anwar, dinie, shafie, afad, syameel and my secondary school girls.(If i didnt include you, sorry, i have short term memory. ahahaha)

Errrrr, thats all I guess. ahahhaha. I'm such a confession freak today.

Anyway, I was suppose to meet either Hazim, Ayun or mardhiyana to go out today. But in the end, all the plan fail coz basically I'm too lazy to go out or to even wake up. ahahaa. I'm going to m'sia ltr. Be back ltr at midnight I guess.

Ok now, I need to get ready. bye.

2009-09-01T00:33:00.002+08:00

Dhiyana here yaww.

well, basically i just get home from watching FINAL DESTINATION with FahmiDanial.
went to meet him at 4.30pm at City Hall, as usual im late. hahahahas. sorry dude to keep you waiting! i will rate the show 7/10 lahs. and after that, we head to grandlink for some karaoke session. hahahaha. kekek i tell you. FUNNN~
reached home arnd 11.45pm, he send me home. thank you, much app it(:

nak go with the girls, mcm tak jadi2 jehs???
when nie korang? when?

so basically, i had fun today.
tmrw no school. yays~
can rest! weehoo.

i will upload pictures taken with FahmiDanial soon alrights.
as my USB digi camera with june.
byebye. good nights!

2009-08-31T19:51:00.005+08:00

'As much as I should be happy that retribution hits you, but I'm not. I pity you. I really do. As I sat down infront of the radio and heard the hari raya songs, It reminds me of one thing,"One should learn to forgive in order to move on and forget eventually". I forgave you. You suffered enough. Our life span is short, no time to hold grudges against each other. If someone were to asked me If I know you, I'll say I dont even know your name. End of the sentence, chapter, book. It ends here.'

Deenaa here.

My plan for today was actually 3 things;

1) Watch FD3 with babygirls,
2) Go out with my dearest cousins;
3) Go out with ______.

But in the end, I sat at home, webcam with ***** then went to sleep. ahhahaa.

Tomorrow not schooling! yes arh baby! hahaha! happy! ahhahaha. kay bye. I want to enjoy pieces of my life now. ahhaa.

2009-08-30T22:51:00.001+08:00

Dhiyana here.

tmrw's schooling.
watching movie with girlfriends after school maybe.
FINAL DESTINATION.
and FahmiDanial wants to meet and go out i guess.
but i still dunnoe whats tmrw's plan gonna be. hehs!

Friday, went out with dearest girls to grandlink & to esplanade.
had a misunderstanding between umar, me & junne.
kecoh siaaaa. hahahahas.

and im still thinking what shoes to buy for rayaaaa.
haiyaaaaa. *confused*
so, thats all for today.
i will do a proper post soon alrights(:
byebye.

ps: imissKANINAYA.
we had some misunderstanding.

good nights!

2009-08-30T19:30:00.003+08:00

Deenaa :]

Hello dummies! :D

I'm like over the moon now. I'm freaking fine. I'm damn happy. At the same time, scared.

Happy~~ I think I can pass my OFA exam. I'm happy that I could do it without any difficulties. And ____________ asked me out. :D

Scared~~ BEV exam this friday! like OMG! I dont know a single shit about that subject! I'm so dead! freaking dead!

I'm happy with life now. No worries. No more sadness.
Tomorrow, schooling. Its either I'm having a movie date or I'm going out with my cousin to town. hahaha. decide tmr. :D

Ok bye, I need to go out now. bye. :D

P.S. I just hate you now. Dont even bother me.

2009-08-26T20:33:00.002+08:00

Deenaa here.

I just hate falling sick. The weak feeling and the vomiting feeling and the headache feeling, urrrghhh, hating it.

I didnt want to go to school early in the morning just now, but I forced myself thinking I'll be fine once I reach school. But it got worst. Slept in class today for 2 hours(mind you, this is my first time doing so) due to late night webcamming with Najib. hahaha. Till 3am!

And I couldnt take the pain anymore, so i went home at 10am and reached home at 11.30am. Reached home, Straight away I went to bed and slept. Till 6.30pm.

Wanted to visit the clinic, but no matter how many days of MC the doctor gave me, I still have to go to school tmr, to finish up my project so its no use. I'm just giving Mr A. a letter from my mum.

I might just die of exhaustion. I'm tired, I'm weak, I might faint(Exaggerating). But I do have the feeling of fainting. Urrrrghh, benci.

Dh sakit satu hal, menstration cramps is also another big problem. F!

I dont want to go to school tomorrow. Please..........

I hate projects!

2009-08-26T10:41:00.004+08:00

Dhiyana here.

some pictures during the 9th August.

to my dearest; don't be sad yaww & GET WELL SOON!
to my girlfriends; soon going out okays, EXPLORING(:
this month, money tight! UURRGGHH!
my EXCEL stuffs DONE!
thanks to nani, mr alan & also jasmine(:
hehehe. okay, BYEBYE!

2009-08-25T21:35:00.003+08:00

I've changed. Maybe for the better, maybe for the worst. I dont know. I dont care. I'm just living my life.

Deenaa

2009-08-25T19:50:00.005+08:00

Deenaa

And I just know the truth. Thanks SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much for doing this eh. You're attached, and didnt tell me. Thanks a MILLION. Guys will be guys. No use uh. The post before this was for you, but after what I saw and know, I TAKE EVERYTHING BACK. I gave my love to the wrong person. I should have known that you're gonna hurt me again. How stupid was I? I JUST HATE YOU TO THE CORE.

I'll NEVER, I mean NEVER, accept you back in my life after what you did. And I thought I was at fault. FCUK YOU!

No use for us being friends. You stay far away from me as possible.
I just hate you more than words can ever describe.

2009-08-25T19:04:00.003+08:00

deenaa

Just as soon as I started to love you, I lost you. You've made mistake, I forgave you. I made a mistake, you made it look like its a big issue. I sincerely love you with all of my heart. I pushed all the guys aside just to be with you. But you pushed me aside because of one stupid mistake I made. This is the second time that my heart has been torn to pieces. And I changed because of you. I'm different now, I know. I'm not that girl you used to love. But I thought you'll love me no matter what.

If you love me, you've accepted the fact and accept me no matter what. But now I know where I stand in your life. I never wanted to lose you, But I just did. In my eyes, there's always you. In my mind, there's always you. In my heart, there's always you.

We've planned for the future. You told me that you see me in your future. But I guess its just words now.

I love you so much. But since you want things to be like this, I accept your decision no matter how much it hurts. I wish the best of luck in your life. I hope you find someone better than me. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you. I appreciate it alot. And I appreciate having you by my side. I mean had. Take care.

I swear this feeling sucks. It hurts so much that I just wish I have no heart.

2009-08-24T18:01:00.005+08:00

'Boys Boys Boys, I like to party with Bacardi.'

Deenaa here.

Went to school as per normal. Went out with bbygirl. Thanks for accompanying me beb. Appreciate it alot. So anyway, waited for the bus just now. Then I saw wan faris. He mumble something to me, but as it is noisy and he's far, I couldnt hear a thing. He smiled and show me the 'Bagos!' sign then went up the bus. hahahah. I laugh only. Then after I boarded the bus, Saw megat. He sat beside me and we chatted for awhile. Talked about his course everything. And I alighted at my bus stop.

Met ayu after reaching home then went to triple 8 and now I'm at home waiting for my mum to reach home so I can help her cook. ahhah.

BTW, just now in school, took tons of pictures with them girls.

This are some of my girls in class. hahaha.
I dont look that decent/innocent type in those pictures right. hahaha! Well, what can I say, Its fasting period. YOU DO THE CRAZIEST STUFF DURING THIS PERIOD! ahahhahaa! But I enjoyed some laughs in class just now. :D

2009-08-23T16:59:00.004+08:00

okay, dhiyana here.

i wanted to upload pictures, but i can't upload it.
why deenaa can do it, i can't? tak fair! hmphh! hahahas.
and yahh, its been a long time i didn't update the blog.
been busy with outings, school and work.

NDP OUTINGS (9th August) -
went out to marina square with diyana, jun & ramilah.
watch fireworks & shouted like hell. hahahaha!
after that went grandlink for karaoke session.
after karaoke, umar fetch us to fort canning.
jimmy and diyana didn't follow up as the car can only fit 5 people,
as two of umar's friend were inside too.
reached fort canning, peng, khai, landak wanted to go esplanade to drink.
haiyaaa, so we went. babygirl called me up saying there's no night rider & she have no cash with her to take cab, so i asked her to meet us at esplanade.
chit-chat with the guys and had fun.
after sometimes, we get bored and planned to go marina barrage.
so, we squeeze in the car, some of them ride bikes, successful! hahaha.
we reached home arnd 5 in the morning.

10th August -
went compass with jun to eat our favorite dish YONG TAU FU TOM YUM! yummy!
bought nail polish remover and did some window shopping, as usual.
than, an unknown number called me, i thot that was umar, and i shouted "eyy gemok siyal, bngn lahs! kate nak fetch kiterh gy riverside? lambat nyerr!"
eventually, that was not umar! that was khai, one of the guy yest, umar's friend.
umar janji nak fetch kiterh kul 11.30pm, but still not reaching yet. so both me and jun merajok, we went home. hahahahas.
arnd 1.30 am, he wanted to fetch us, but we're too lazy to go out already. kereta pon dah sempit, got darus peng, khai and umar. so plan cancelled.

15th August -
after work, darus and khai fetched me and babygirl to fort canning.
reached home 7am in the morning. tros knocked off! soo damn damn tired.

21st August -
after school, went home straight. so restless already.
in the afternoon, khai fetch me and went vivo to meet jun and umar.
khai is a CRUEL man ever! i was fidgeting on his bike at expressway, he was so angry and ask me to get down. idiot kan. and he say, "pantat u aderh ulat eyy?"
so we reached vivo, we went to watch "where got ghost?"
the show was damn funny i tell you. should go and watch okays?
and this is for my classmates, "korang nak ikat aku when watching movie, BUT eventually, i head butt khai in the cinema already."
hahahahahas, khai tros pening kepala. hahahahahahas. bcos the last part of the show was so shocking! idiot btol. after movie, went botak jones at orchard to grab something for our stomach. reached home arnd 4am in the morning. sahur, mandi, than off to bed. hahahahas.

so well, thats my outings and funs i had(:
FINAL DESTINATION! i wanna watch. okay? okay?

and imy girlfriends. end of the month kays?
lisha's babyboy, how's you doing?
see you soon. byebye.

2009-08-23T13:12:00.004+08:00

'Tonight is the night to let it go. You wanna see how I lose control.'

Deenaa here.

I really enjoy my time yesterday. Although guys can be sucha dumbass, I didnt know they could test my patience that much. Well, since yesterday was the first day of the fasting month, I hold back my anger, sadness and tears.

I accompanied mummy to the old marsiling. She wanted to do something while I needed something from her. :D So anyway, went out of the house at 10am. Reached home at 1pm coz we waited for my dad to pass mummy her card. As soon as I reached home, I rushed off to work. Reached work, sat there for only 2 hours then off we go. Actually wanted to buke with hisham. But then since we got planned something else, we had to say bye to him. So me and bbygirl went to vivo and chill for awhile then we went down to banquet and break our fast. When I asked mummy to msg me when its breaking fast time, i got 2 msges in the end. hahaha. Bagos lah tu.

After which we went for a smoke then we met jun at ngee ann city then we went to east coast park to celebrate their friend's birthday. Went home at 1am. He sent us home. Ok done.

HAHAHAHAHA! Overall, I had fun with my dearest girls. We met lisha while we're on the way to the bus stop. hahaha. Syg lisha. Syg jun. Syg dhiyana. Thanks for making me smile and laugh.

Ok, while waiting for jun, me and mardhiyana took some pictures. heheh.

Ok done. Buhbye. :D

2009-08-21T15:54:00.002+08:00

'Wrap your arms around me and tell me you're gonna stay by my side.'

-Deenaa

2009-08-21T14:38:00.002+08:00

Deenaa here.

Ok, I'm at home. While the rest of my girls are enjoying their friday. NOT FAIR AT ALL!

Bbygirl - Enjoying her day by going out with....
Hidayu & Nadia - Watching movie together.
Nani - Go meet her lurp.
Mardea - Unsure, but I bet she's enjoying her time.
Rahayu - Went out with her boyf.
Lisha - Confirm enjoying herself.
Nurul Ayunni - She went to fetch iqbar and go celebrate iqbar's mum birthday.

And as for me, SITTING AT HOME. Wanted to go meet dearest. But he has something on. So now, I'm at home all alone. Yelah, bile part aku dh rebond rmbt, tkde org nk kluar gan aku. sial btl.

I'm bored lah. Someone please asked me out.

Seriously seh, its like my first time sitting at home with the feeling of wanting to go out.

Pffft.

'Bby, I cried and cried and cried. Because of you. When can I start to believe your words and your love? You tell me."

2009-08-19T22:27:00.004+08:00

My dear boy,

You went through all that trouble just by hurting me. I gave you the easy choice, But nooooo, you took the difficult choice and took the knife and stab it in my heart. This time, you stabbed it in deeper than you ever had.

The first time you did that, I forgave you, took you back and showered you with care, concern and love. But you took advantage of it yet ONCE AGAIN. I thought you've changed for the better, But you showed me that I was wrong. Thank you for doing so. Now I know how stupid I am.

This shows me that you have no heart at all. I was always by your side. I stayed by your side even when you hurt me. I'm freaking disappointed. You never knew how I felt. Does it benefit you by hurting me? I told you before, if you wanted to leave me, leave already. But why waited till now then you want to start leaving?

You're the reason to the major changes in my life. I never wanted this, you've left that terrible scar in me. Instead of going the right way, you left me

Yours Sincerely,
Deenaa

Thanks.

2009-08-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

Deenaa

All plans had backfired.

Went to school as usual today. Went home early. So I took the bus back to woodlands since it was still early to meet dearest. and the story continues....

Overall, I had a fight with him, met him and we settled everything. I'm glad I met him today. I really miss him so much. Left at around 8pm hoping to reach home by 9pm. But nope, I reached home 25 minutes late. And I fought with my father. Whatever lah eh. Semue nk carik gadoh. I used to shut the fcuk up when people scold me, not anymore lah. No more stepping on my head lah sickening biatch.

A nice hug, kiss and a deep stare in the eyes can make a girl melt. I was angry at him, but after I met him, I never did regret coming down there even for only 3 hours. I'm like, over the moon now.

But at the same time, I cant help but feeling sad. Not sure why. So anyway, while dearest was checking my bag just now, he came across my lip butter. And then he and his friend used it. hahaha! Never in my life have I seen any guy or even boy, applying lip butter on their lips. and after using it, his friend said, "eeeee. rase die mcm tgh cium pompan!". hahahhaa. I was laughing all the way. FYI, he told me to blog bout this.

I'm still freaking out. How did he know I have a blog????

So anyway, I'm feeling sleepy already. Off to sleep now.