'As much as I should be happy that retribution hits you, but I'm not. I pity you. I really do. As I sat down infront of the radio and heard the hari raya songs, It reminds me of one thing,"One should learn to forgive in order to move on and forget eventually". I forgave you. You suffered enough. Our life span is short, no time to hold grudges against each other. If someone were to asked me If I know you, I'll say I dont even know your name. End of the sentence, chapter, book. It ends here.'

Deenaa here.


My plan for today was actually 3 things;

1) Watch FD3 with babygirls,
2) Go out with my dearest cousins;
3) Go out with ______.

But in the end, I sat at home, webcam with ***** then went to sleep. ahhahaa.

Tomorrow not schooling! yes arh baby! hahaha! happy! ahhahaha. kay bye. I want to enjoy pieces of my life now. ahhaa.

Labels: Forgive and forget.

Dhiyana here.

tmrw's schooling.
watching movie with girlfriends after school maybe.
FINAL DESTINATION.
and FahmiDanial wants to meet and go out i guess.
but i still dunnoe whats tmrw's plan gonna be. hehs!


Friday, went out with dearest girls to grandlink & to esplanade.
had a misunderstanding between umar, me & junne.
kecoh siaaaa. hahahahas.

and im still thinking what shoes to buy for rayaaaa.
haiyaaaaa. *confused*
so, thats all for today.
i will do a proper post soon alrights(:
byebye.


ps: imissKANINAYA.
we had some misunderstanding.

good nights!

Deenaa :]


Hello dummies! :D


I'm like over the moon now. I'm freaking fine. I'm damn happy. At the same time, scared.

Happy~~ I think I can pass my OFA exam. I'm happy that I could do it without any difficulties. And ____________ asked me out. :D

Scared~~ BEV exam this friday! like OMG! I dont know a single shit about that subject! I'm so dead! freaking dead!


I'm happy with life now. No worries. No more sadness.
Tomorrow, schooling. Its either I'm having a movie date or I'm going out with my cousin to town. hahaha. decide tmr. :D

Ok bye, I need to go out now. bye. :D


P.S. I just hate you now. Dont even bother me.

Labels: 100% happiness

Deenaa here.


I just hate falling sick. The weak feeling and the vomiting feeling and the headache feeling, urrrghhh, hating it.

I didnt want to go to school early in the morning just now, but I forced myself thinking I'll be fine once I reach school. But it got worst. Slept in class today for 2 hours(mind you, this is my first time doing so) due to late night webcamming with Najib. hahaha. Till 3am!

And I couldnt take the pain anymore, so i went home at 10am and reached home at 11.30am. Reached home, Straight away I went to bed and slept. Till 6.30pm.

Wanted to visit the clinic, but no matter how many days of MC the doctor gave me, I still have to go to school tmr, to finish up my project so its no use. I'm just giving Mr A. a letter from my mum.

I might just die of exhaustion. I'm tired, I'm weak, I might faint(Exaggerating). But I do have the feeling of fainting. Urrrrghh, benci.

Dh sakit satu hal, menstration cramps is also another big problem. F!

I dont want to go to school tomorrow. Please..........


I hate projects!

Labels: weak.

Dhiyana here.

some pictures during the 9th August.




to my dearest; don't be sad yaww & GET WELL SOON!
to my girlfriends; soon going out okays, EXPLORING(:
this month, money tight! UURRGGHH!
my EXCEL stuffs DONE!
thanks to nani, mr alan & also jasmine(:
hehehe. okay, BYEBYE!

I've changed. Maybe for the better, maybe for the worst. I dont know. I dont care. I'm just living my life.


Deenaa

Deenaa

And I just know the truth. Thanks SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much for doing this eh. You're attached, and didnt tell me. Thanks a MILLION. Guys will be guys. No use uh. The post before this was for you, but after what I saw and know, I TAKE EVERYTHING BACK. I gave my love to the wrong person. I should have known that you're gonna hurt me again. How stupid was I? I JUST HATE YOU TO THE CORE.

I'll NEVER, I mean NEVER, accept you back in my life after what you did. And I thought I was at fault. FCUK YOU!

No use for us being friends. You stay far away from me as possible.
I just hate you more than words can ever describe.

Labels: FCUKING BASTARDS

deenaa

Just as soon as I started to love you, I lost you. You've made mistake, I forgave you. I made a mistake, you made it look like its a big issue. I sincerely love you with all of my heart. I pushed all the guys aside just to be with you. But you pushed me aside because of one stupid mistake I made. This is the second time that my heart has been torn to pieces. And I changed because of you. I'm different now, I know. I'm not that girl you used to love. But I thought you'll love me no matter what.

If you love me, you've accepted the fact and accept me no matter what. But now I know where I stand in your life. I never wanted to lose you, But I just did. In my eyes, there's always you. In my mind, there's always you. In my heart, there's always you.

We've planned for the future. You told me that you see me in your future. But I guess its just words now.

I love you so much. But since you want things to be like this, I accept your decision no matter how much it hurts. I wish the best of luck in your life. I hope you find someone better than me. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you. I appreciate it alot. And I appreciate having you by my side. I mean had. Take care.

I swear this feeling sucks. It hurts so much that I just wish I have no heart.

Labels: The feeling of one's heart breaking.

'Boys Boys Boys, I like to party with Bacardi.'


Deenaa here.

Went to school as per normal. Went out with bbygirl. Thanks for accompanying me beb. Appreciate it alot. So anyway, waited for the bus just now. Then I saw wan faris. He mumble something to me, but as it is noisy and he's far, I couldnt hear a thing. He smiled and show me the 'Bagos!' sign then went up the bus. hahahah. I laugh only. Then after I boarded the bus, Saw megat. He sat beside me and we chatted for awhile. Talked about his course everything. And I alighted at my bus stop.

Met ayu after reaching home then went to triple 8 and now I'm at home waiting for my mum to reach home so I can help her cook. ahhah.

BTW, just now in school, took tons of pictures with them girls.















This are some of my girls in class. hahaha.
I dont look that decent/innocent type in those pictures right. hahaha! Well, what can I say, Its fasting period. YOU DO THE CRAZIEST STUFF DURING THIS PERIOD! ahahhahaa! But I enjoyed some laughs in class just now. :D

Labels: Waiting.......

okay, dhiyana here.

i wanted to upload pictures, but i can't upload it.
why deenaa can do it, i can't? tak fair! hmphh! hahahas.
and yahh, its been a long time i didn't update the blog.
been busy with outings, school and work.


NDP OUTINGS (9th August) -
went out to marina square with diyana, jun & ramilah.
watch fireworks & shouted like hell. hahahaha!
after that went grandlink for karaoke session.
after karaoke, umar fetch us to fort canning.
jimmy and diyana didn't follow up as the car can only fit 5 people,
as two of umar's friend were inside too.
reached fort canning, peng, khai, landak wanted to go esplanade to drink.
haiyaaa, so we went. babygirl called me up saying there's no night rider & she have no cash with her to take cab, so i asked her to meet us at esplanade.
chit-chat with the guys and had fun.
after sometimes, we get bored and planned to go marina barrage.
so, we squeeze in the car, some of them ride bikes, successful! hahaha.
we reached home arnd 5 in the morning.

10th August -
went compass with jun to eat our favorite dish YONG TAU FU TOM YUM! yummy!
bought nail polish remover and did some window shopping, as usual.
than, an unknown number called me, i thot that was umar, and i shouted "eyy gemok siyal, bngn lahs! kate nak fetch kiterh gy riverside? lambat nyerr!"
eventually, that was not umar! that was khai, one of the guy yest, umar's friend.
umar janji nak fetch kiterh kul 11.30pm, but still not reaching yet. so both me and jun merajok, we went home. hahahahas.
arnd 1.30 am, he wanted to fetch us, but we're too lazy to go out already. kereta pon dah sempit, got darus peng, khai and umar. so plan cancelled.

15th August -
after work, darus and khai fetched me and babygirl to fort canning.
reached home 7am in the morning. tros knocked off! soo damn damn tired.

21st August -
after school, went home straight. so restless already.
in the afternoon, khai fetch me and went vivo to meet jun and umar.
khai is a CRUEL man ever! i was fidgeting on his bike at expressway, he was so angry and ask me to get down. idiot kan. and he say, "pantat u aderh ulat eyy?"
so we reached vivo, we went to watch "where got ghost?"
the show was damn funny i tell you. should go and watch okays?
and this is for my classmates, "korang nak ikat aku when watching movie, BUT eventually, i head butt khai in the cinema already."
hahahahahas, khai tros pening kepala. hahahahahahas. bcos the last part of the show was so shocking! idiot btol. after movie, went botak jones at orchard to grab something for our stomach. reached home arnd 4am in the morning. sahur, mandi, than off to bed. hahahahas.

so well, thats my outings and funs i had(:
FINAL DESTINATION! i wanna watch. okay? okay?

and imy girlfriends. end of the month kays?
lisha's babyboy, how's you doing?
see you soon. byebye.

Labels: enjoyable moments ever.

'Tonight is the night to let it go. You wanna see how I lose control.'

Deenaa here.


I really enjoy my time yesterday. Although guys can be sucha dumbass, I didnt know they could test my patience that much. Well, since yesterday was the first day of the fasting month, I hold back my anger, sadness and tears.

I accompanied mummy to the old marsiling. She wanted to do something while I needed something from her. :D So anyway, went out of the house at 10am. Reached home at 1pm coz we waited for my dad to pass mummy her card. As soon as I reached home, I rushed off to work. Reached work, sat there for only 2 hours then off we go. Actually wanted to buke with hisham. But then since we got planned something else, we had to say bye to him. So me and bbygirl went to vivo and chill for awhile then we went down to banquet and break our fast. When I asked mummy to msg me when its breaking fast time, i got 2 msges in the end. hahaha. Bagos lah tu.

After which we went for a smoke then we met jun at ngee ann city then we went to east coast park to celebrate their friend's birthday. Went home at 1am. He sent us home. Ok done.


HAHAHAHAHA! Overall, I had fun with my dearest girls. We met lisha while we're on the way to the bus stop. hahaha. Syg lisha. Syg jun. Syg dhiyana. Thanks for making me smile and laugh.

Ok, while waiting for jun, me and mardhiyana took some pictures. heheh.











Ok done. Buhbye. :D

Labels: sweetest girls.

'Wrap your arms around me and tell me you're gonna stay by my side.'

-Deenaa

Deenaa here.


Ok, I'm at home. While the rest of my girls are enjoying their friday. NOT FAIR AT ALL!

Bbygirl - Enjoying her day by going out with....
Hidayu & Nadia - Watching movie together.
Nani - Go meet her lurp.
Mardea - Unsure, but I bet she's enjoying her time.
Rahayu - Went out with her boyf.
Lisha - Confirm enjoying herself.
Nurul Ayunni - She went to fetch iqbar and go celebrate iqbar's mum birthday.

And as for me, SITTING AT HOME. Wanted to go meet dearest. But he has something on. So now, I'm at home all alone. Yelah, bile part aku dh rebond rmbt, tkde org nk kluar gan aku. sial btl.

I'm bored lah. Someone please asked me out.

Seriously seh, its like my first time sitting at home with the feeling of wanting to go out.

Pffft.


'Bby, I cried and cried and cried. Because of you. When can I start to believe your words and your love? You tell me."

My dear boy,

You went through all that trouble just by hurting me. I gave you the easy choice, But nooooo, you took the difficult choice and took the knife and stab it in my heart. This time, you stabbed it in deeper than you ever had.

The first time you did that, I forgave you, took you back and showered you with care, concern and love. But you took advantage of it yet ONCE AGAIN. I thought you've changed for the better, But you showed me that I was wrong. Thank you for doing so. Now I know how stupid I am.

This shows me that you have no heart at all. I was always by your side. I stayed by your side even when you hurt me. I'm freaking disappointed. You never knew how I felt. Does it benefit you by hurting me? I told you before, if you wanted to leave me, leave already. But why waited till now then you want to start leaving?

You're the reason to the major changes in my life. I never wanted this, you've left that terrible scar in me. Instead of going the right way, you left me


Yours Sincerely,
Deenaa


Thanks.

Labels: A thank you note for you.

Deenaa


All plans had backfired.

Went to school as usual today. Went home early. So I took the bus back to woodlands since it was still early to meet dearest. and the story continues....

Overall, I had a fight with him, met him and we settled everything. I'm glad I met him today. I really miss him so much. Left at around 8pm hoping to reach home by 9pm. But nope, I reached home 25 minutes late. And I fought with my father. Whatever lah eh. Semue nk carik gadoh. I used to shut the fcuk up when people scold me, not anymore lah. No more stepping on my head lah sickening biatch.

A nice hug, kiss and a deep stare in the eyes can make a girl melt. I was angry at him, but after I met him, I never did regret coming down there even for only 3 hours. I'm like, over the moon now.

But at the same time, I cant help but feeling sad. Not sure why. So anyway, while dearest was checking my bag just now, he came across my lip butter. And then he and his friend used it. hahaha! Never in my life have I seen any guy or even boy, applying lip butter on their lips. and after using it, his friend said, "eeeee. rase die mcm tgh cium pompan!". hahahhaa. I was laughing all the way. FYI, he told me to blog bout this.

I'm still freaking out. How did he know I have a blog????

So anyway, I'm feeling sleepy already. Off to sleep now.

Labels: Sweetest hug

'I never knew that the one who loves me deeply is the one I never notice before. I only realize it now when I took the time to look around.'

Deenaa here.


I'm just confused. Freaking confused.

I'm hurt and I've hurt others. I'm sorry my dear. I regret this. More than ever.
I dont know why but I just couldnt stop crying since just now.

My past is haunting me every second. If only................

Anyway, meeting bby tmr to watch a movie together. I missed him alot.

I'm just tired. bye.

Labels: Regretful actions.

deenaa


I just simple hate this. I deserve to know. I seriously don't deserve this. Point out my mistake, let me amend it. Don't have to go through all those troubles.

Mixed feelings. 'Sad/happy/hurt/angry/frustrated/annoyed/unforgiving' emotions are running through me now.

URGH!

HELLO LOVERS/DUMMIES/BELOS!!

Deenaa here.


I dont know where to start!! ahhaha.

Ok2, giving the recent good news first, TK KENE SAMAN!! This part I syg tu officer. hahaha! Its been 18 days and I still didnt get the letter from HSA which I was suppose to get. So I got worried and I called the HSA hotline and when I asked them if there's any fines under my NRIC, and they checked it 3 times and confirmed tkde! Sumpah aku happy gile babi.

And dearest called me just now. Maybe he got DK today. He and his DK. Bagos uh tu. Postpone our meeting till next monday. Coz he has to go to this DK session till this sat since this sun is his competition. And the most saddening part is, he told me ytd that if he's gentleman enough, he'll fetch me from school on monday. And he said that If he does that, then I'm the first girl he fetch from school. I'm not sure if I should be happy that he said that or what. But overall, harap2 he's gentleman enough.

Ok, now I'm like finding 3 articles for my BEV project. but so far I found 2. But I also dont know if the article I chose has anything to do with my subject. aku maen potong je dari newspaper. hahaha. dh mlz nk bace.

Kay dh, I'm feeling sleepy already. I want to rest for awhile. kay bye.

Labels: Jumping for joy

deenaa here.


'I hate that I love you so....'

Do you ever feel that no matter how much he/she has hurt you, you still cant seem to hate him/her? Its like what I'm feeling now.

No matter how he hurt me verbally, I still love him. Bdh ke bdh. I used to give people advise saying, "If he's bound to hurt you no matter what, leave him even if you love him". Now I get the idea why they never seem to use this advice. Bodoh peh diyana.

A TIP FROM ME: NEVER give advice if you, yourself, havent gone through what they've gone through. OR, NEVER give advice if you yourself cant carry out that advice.

P.S. Why am I always the one at fault? Have you ever thought that its your fault in some way? Be responsible for your actions! Dont put the blames on me can?! I know that sometimes I'm at fault, but even when you're at fault, you blame it on me. And I'm kind enough as to say sorry even when I'm not at fault ok. So dont push your freaking luck!



Ok done. I wanna talk on the phone for awhile before going to sleep. ok bye.

Labels: selfish fools.

Hello fellow readers.

Deenaa here.

I know I haven't been blogging lately. Its due to me shifting house and mostly school.

So anyway, touch on my life abit.

Still single, life sucks, drunk, school fuck and I'm lunatic.

Kay bedek. hahhaa. so anyway, Love life, single but complicated. Life, same routine everyday except there's one more thing I SHOULD do every single morning,afternoon,evening and night. Drunk?? NO! School, has been amazing lately. Lunatic? OBVIOUSLY NO.

Ok, Done touching on my life.

Projects has been killing me and making me do this which I've never done before. Like seriously sia. And still in hand, 2 projects and 9 assignments left. mane tk naek gile??

This sunday plan, go out and have tons of FUN. and meet 'ehem' also. AHAHHA!

Urrrggghhh, projects!!

Ok now, I gtg now. must do my project then talk on the phone then my bed is calling me. so bye.

Labels: care and concern. Love.

Dhiyana here.

im feeling fucked-up/frustated/sad/angry/down/happy & ALL the MIXED FEELINGS!
oh my god, what should i do?
Things are all jumping up and down, running as fast as they could, trembling like fuck!
FREAKKKK :(

idk if i have to be angry or just walk off and say 'FUCK OFF!'
urrgghh.
gfs, i need you girls by my side.

well, am excited too for the outing soon with the sayangs!
woooohooooo!
happy+excited(:

and to you EX, go and die & never come back!
don't try to seduce my gf.
try harder!
feel GUILTY?! go & die!
PUIII!

ps: when i got high, & i don't want to keep YOUR baby boo.

Labels: u suck big time.

Deenaa here.


TO DEAAA!: beb, sumpah gmbr tk perlu besar2 siol. hahaha. lek siolll!

I don't know why but I'm damn happy. But at the same time, I'm damn tired. My house is still in some mess, but my room is safe. heee.

Spent my weekends cleaning my new house. Deaaa, sungguh the rindu u lah biol. hahaha. Ya, you asked me out but I have to clean up the house, bkn nye nk tlg, nk kluar je tau. hahaha! But I dont mind, I'm looking forward to 9th august. The day that I'll spend all of my time with my bbygirls.

I miss affik for some reason. Talked to him on the phone ytd night, he called me at 1.49am(I was about to sleep when he called me). So I chatted with him for awhile since I didnt talk to him for 1 whole day. I asked him about something which he would NEVER want me to take. And he said that If I still want to take it, then he'll leave me forever. Its a nice feeling when someone care for you. Just now he call me, and I was ironing my clothes, so I told him to call me back ltr, tk call pon.....

So anyway, tmr school siol. hahaha. I'm excited because of something at the same time, mlz nye nk gi skola. hahaha.


Ok bye now.
I'm gonna take a rest.
:D

Labels: my number one. :D

*Sorry beb, i delete the picture. Coz its too big.*

OHMYGOD!
the photo is damn BIG siyol! lek siol gambar nie.
aniways, mardhiyana here.

well yest, time was spent with bestie and the rest.
fun i tell you the fireworks and atmosphere over there.
babygirl text me, she's bored at home, tulah i ajak u kluar, tkleh kluar kan, GY KEMAS RUMAH! jgn gatal nak kluar. hehehehe.
saw jimmy at esplanade, chat for awhile and left.

met iskandar, take something from him, eat and he left.
met lisha at void deck, talk and went home.
kene screen ngan police, suay peeee.

well, weekdays im schooling, weekends i will spent time with girlfriends, thats my life routine.
i feel bored at times, but life have to move on what.
feel so shagged today siaaa. haiyaaaa. meeting lisha for awhile later(:

ps: CAN I HAVE MINE PLEASEEEE?!



i miss my GIRLFEYS!

S U N S H I N E's

Nur Diyana.
a.k.a. Deena
Eighteen
ITE Clementi;
Hospitality Operations
(Higher Nitec)

Laughing machine. Fan of smiling.
A very friendly girl.
Most importantly, She's a random person.



Siti Mardhiyana.
a.k.a. Dhiyana
Eighteen
ITE Clementi;
Hospitality Operations
(Higher Nitec)


Laughing gas. Queen of jokes.
A very social able girl.
Most importantly, She's just being her.



The Similarity between us;

We love being ourself even if it means we look like a fool.
We love to laugh whenever we see each other.
We do everything together.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Schoolmates/Classmates

Ayu(Hidayu)

Ayu(Rahayu)

Farah

Mardea

Mirahh

Nadia

Syerzan

Deenaa's friends

Amyra

Atiqah

Eyes

Ichan

Marly

Zanne Z

Dhiyana's friends

Alysha

Atin

Faris

FatinHaziqah

FatynFertycia

Fazlianah

Fisah

Ilyana

Lisha

Manjerbiolz

Syazwani

Wan

Wana

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